Thursday, 26 November 2020

Risk your Heart

Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning.

You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth.

You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up.

And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself that you tasted as many as you could. 

Thursday, 12 November 2020

500 things I want in a Lover

I am sharing the ones that are meaningful to me…

#13 Someone who makes me think, “You’re who I’ve been waiting for all my life.”

#43 Someone who fits with together with me like the perfect jigsaw piece.

#54 A green-thumb to nurture the garden that is me.

#70 Someone who doesn’t try to change who I am.

#113 Someone who will lay on the couch with me on a gloomy day and read books all day long.

#121 Someone to make me finally believe in “the one”.

#137 To be the only one who can make me cry, but who never would.

#15 Someone who will make me believe that Love is worth fighting for.

#282 Someone whose honesty, however much I don’t want to hear it, does not leave me feeling used or fooled.

#302 Someone who would hold my wrinkly hand as we walk down the streets when we’re 79 years old.

#308 Someone who understands the language my eyes speak.

#327 Someone who will stick around, even when it’s hard… especially when it’s hard.

#332 Someone who will get me Canada Dry Ginger Ale when I am sick.

#347 Someone that will love me to no end, even if I don’t love myself sometimes.

#358 Someone who wont remind me of one of their ex’s and try to compare me with them. Good or Bad.

#376 Someone who asks how my day was, and genuinely wants to know the answer, no matter how long my answer may be.

#415 Someone who isn’t afraid of change.

#424 Someone who is not afraid to tell me the truth.

#447 Someone I can create a library with.

#459 Someone to call me beautiful for once, not cute.

#469 Someone that cares to listen to my pointless stories.

#472 Someone who is not too proud to say I’m sorry.

#480 Someone who is a part time lover and a full time friend.

#494 Someone whose actions speak louder then words.

#500 Someone who doesn’t have to be all of these 500 Things, but has all these little lovable quirks anyways.

Friday, 6 November 2020

Empty Shell of a Heart

Somewhere we stand
alone with memories
and dreams
drifting to an unknown place

Where are we
lost out at sea
in the middle
of oceans of nothingness

Our screams go unheard
our tears fall without a sound
where pain is swallowed up
by vast voids
and oceans of numbness

There is nothing
our hearts sit empty
waiting for light

Come be my lighthouse
fill this empty soul
with light and love
guide me away
safely

Show me how to return to shore
to find solid ground
to feel the pain
the hope
the joy
with you

Help my empty shell of a heart
become something more
be my lighthouse
fill me with light
bring me back